What We've Been Up To

Hello Blog World, My name is Sarah...have we met? It's been so long I don't know if we have. Well before you roll your bloggy eyes at me and click to a new site, let me at least give you my list of excuses of why I have been MIA in the internet world.

1) As you know we moved from Colorado to California. Now let me start by saying this wasn't really something we had planned. Yes we had dreams of pulling up roots in Co and doing something else. But So Cal was not what we had in mind. But as life goes, Someone else had bigger plans for us and we know why we are here now. Family, plain and simple.

2) It took till now to accept that I am not on vacation. You know how it is new place, new things. One of those new things being fabulous weather and a beach. Also Chip is now working from home so I don't get that feeling that the work week is going because he is gone.

3) A little bit of self pity. I really miss Colorado. I miss the people, so bad. I miss everyone of you. It makes me not want to get on facebook, or read your blogs because it make me miss you so much, But in this solitude I have found something. My hubby. It has been hard to say the least being around each other like 24/7. But I can see how this has forced us to "be together" and be there for each other.

4) My children are out of control...and are exhausting. Good thing they are cute!

5) We just moved into a new(ish) house. And if any of you have ever moved into a house that requires some work will understand that it is all consuming. The person that lived here before us neither knew how to clean or pick proper paint colors. Seriously, who makes an entire house covered in neon colors?

6) I am lazy. (wait, what..who wrote that? I think my subconscious is taking over my list)

7) Trying to find a balance between acceptance that I am not back in my comfort zone where I know people and they know me ( I am hearing the theme song to Cheers right now) and trying to put myself out there and make new friends. And still keeping the ones that I have made before. I have to say "I DON'T WANT TO MAKE NEW FRIENDS!" You guys are just to amazing and I don't want new ones I just want you all to come here!

So with that being said, do you all forgive my internet silence?

P.S You all can come stay with us! We will put you up in our sparest of spare rooms (only the kindred spirits will understand that) But we do in fact have a spare room that is just waiting for occupants! At the moment it is a lovely shade of neon pink and blue, but it is on my list of things to paint.

Because it's my Birthday!

Because it's my birthday, I didn't get out of bed until the last minute.

Because it's my birthday, I drove Henry to school even though it is only a mile away.

Because it's my birthday, I ate chocolate covered pretzels for breakfast.

Because it's my birthday, my kid's ate chocolate for breakfast too!

Because it's my birthday, I am not doing the dishes.

Because it's my birthday, I will have a glass of wine with lunch.

Because it's my birthday, I will spend the afternoon at the spa.

Because it's my birthday, after I will go to starbuck's after I am done.

Because it's my birthday, I will take a long walk on the beach all by myself.

Because it's my birthday, I will not feel bad that my kid's are not at the beach with me.

Because it's my birthday, I will let someone else cook me dinner.

Because it's my birthday, I might have more than a glass of wine at dinner.

Because it's my birthday, I will eat 2 portions or dessert.

Because it's my birthday, I won't do the dishes.

Because it's my birthday, I will go to bed without brushing my teeth.

Because it's my birthday, I will brush my teeth, because it is gross to not ;)

Because it's my birthday, I will get kisses goodnight from my favorite boys.

Because it's my birthday, I will have a good day.

Fear No More!

My little family and I have gone on a bit of a life adventure. After a couple of years of feeling like maybe it was time for us to pull our roots and land someplace other than the comfort of Colorado, we decided to do it. Oceanside Ca became our destination. Why? I am not sure. We knew that we wanted someplace warmer in the winter and not so miserable in the summer. But more than that it just felt right for us. My sister just moved here and I have always wanted to be closer to her and her family. I want my boys to grow up knowing their cousins.

So here we are. We have sold most of our things, and moved into an apartment (with only one bathroom) And we are living the California Dream.

The one thing this whole move has brought to surface is the fact that I live in fear everyday. In Colorado I was able to "avoid" the things I was afraid of. One of the things I fear is water. No not drinking it. But large bodies of water freak me out. I can lay in bed for hours imagining all the ways my boys can be swept out to sea. Or fall off the cliff into the waves below. Or at the pool, slipping on a slippery spot and cracking their little heads on the side of the pool.....the list goes on and on and just saying them makes my chest tighten and tears start to form in my eyes. My conclusion is I am completely mental!

I am making a choice this morning, I am no longer going to be governed by my fear. (you should hear my inner dialog going nuts right now, I think it is not happy about giving up this continuous stressing over what "might" happen)(told you I was mental) I have been put in so many situations in the last week that have made me face these ugly faced fears and guess what?! At the beach my kids were not swept away by a rouge riptide. We went to the cliffs and tide pools in La Jolla and neither of them fell to their deaths. We go to the pool almost everyday and they have yet to crack open those beautiful little heads.

Yes, they need to be kept an I on. Because left to their own devices. They would kill themselves. But are they going to learn how to be functioning members of society if I don't let them do anything? We all learn by doing and I need to just tell my fear to sod off, because it is no longer just affecting me, I am going to start giving that fear to my kids.

So fear this is what I have to say to you. BUGGER OFF! I have a God that will take care of me and my boys. We will live life, and live it abundantly. You have no power here any longer. I am taking back my thoughts. You will no longer keep me up at night or cause these awful wrinkles you are putting on my forehead.

I don't know why but this song makes me just feel better about life. It makes me want to dance...So here you go. (sorry about the creepy preview before hand)